Friday, March 24, 2006
( Demoralisation... )
my mum does not really do what she says... our school had this parents meeting to TALK about... our results... when said that a lot of people did not do well for the Common Test this time round... she said that it was ok... you will learn from it...
BUT... when the results were gotten... she scolded me for not doing so well... what happened to the "its ok"? i felt that the results i had gotten was better then i had expected but nooo... she had to keep on talking about my poor results over and over again... from school all the way till after our dinner... even my dad did the same... they kept on rattling and rattling about it... i didn't have the appetite to continue eating...
Yar... they saw my results that ranged from B to E... but they just failed to see that one A1 that i got for amaths... maybe it is just the the other letters had overpower it or something... i do not know...
but when my mum finally realised that little A i got... she told my dad how i could do well for amaths but not my emaths... and... my dad had to continue with his demoralisation talk... "it is not good to only score well for one subject... if u want to score... make sure u do it for everything... or else it is no use!"
if that's the case... how i wished that i had gotten a B instead, just like the others... like that, it wont be missed out, unlike A. they just can't find anything to praise me about... not even my amaths... it is just demoralising words one after the other... i'm sick and tired of it!
what with the... "if u don't score less than 20... you can't go anywhere... not even to poly..." well.. i could... its just that i won't be able to get into the course that i wanted that's all... but god dammit... they had to continue saying... " with this type of results you can only get to ITE... or maybe work after that... as waitress or sales promoters..." WTH... my results are not that bad that i will go to ITE... and i won't! i just can't seem to stand anything any longer... k'so... i just wish that they would stop talking... i already feel that i have succeeded a little by geting higher grades than expected... but they just have to grab me by my ankle and slam me down hard onto the floor... what with all the broken, shattered hopes i now see flying around me...
yar... i now that this is a realy long post... but i just had to let it out... and i'm still feeling pissed... >_<
i guess i'll stop here... gd nitex (^_^)
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